Voices

Sup, internet. Look at me blogging again! I am on a roll! If I keep this up maybe I won’t be so repressed. Let’s be honest though. I am sure I’ll forget for a couple months, and then post again. However, that is not what I wanted to talk about this week. What I want to talk about is how bad humanity can suck. I always joke that we are long over due for a plague, but I am starting to mean it in a very serious way. It amazes me that there are people out there capable of amazing compassion and love, but for every one of those people there are, what feels like, thousands of the other. I am talking about the real pieces of shit that cause hate and discontent just for the hell of it. They go out of their way to hurt others. It is a sobering thought that there are more of these assholes than the good people.

Naturally, this train of thought has led me to seek solace in the only place I can find it these days. Music. Now, one of my all time favorite bands, Motionless in White, has a song on their most recent album called Voices. It’s kinda my new jam. In this song, there is a lyric that states, “I keep it all inside because I know that man is anything but kind.” When I heard this song, it hit me right in the feels because it rings with truth. I know I keep quite a bit to myself because it can be used against me. I don’t just mean bottling up my feelings, though I do that frequently as well, I am talking about my outward self that the rest of the world sees.

I have built a massive wall between myself and the rest of the world. I don’t want people to know what I am really like. I am convinced that if I do they will turn it against me. Like the fact that I love to help people. One of my love languages is service. Doing things for others makes me happier than almost anything else. Of course, once people realize this they tend to take advantage. They will take all I have to give without a second thought. There is also the more generic example of love. Humans are almost as bad at love as they are choosing a president. They either open themselves up to the wrong kind of love, and they end up a psychotic mess, or they take the love that someone has given them and use it as a source of power. They know that the person who loves them will do almost anything for them, and they use it to keep power and control. It’s a horrible, but it happens more often than we would like.   

I suppose the lesson this week would be to try not to be an asshole. I know that for some of you this is really tough because you know nothing else, but attempt to not suck so bad. The world is ugly enough as it is. Let’s not help it along by being unkind.